What does it feel like to have someone love you? I’ve crushed and lusted and fallen and cared for. I’ve even loved someone myself. But at 25, I can’t say I’ve ever felt it. Reciprocated love.
I never thought I’d be this girl. I suppose no one really ever sets out to be what I’ve become, though. How do I still care about you? How do I still try to find ways to read messages from you? How do I go to bed and still recap every good moment we had over and over again? How do I keep letting myself be friends with you after you ended our relationship and knowing that every single subway ride back will end with me crying myself to sleep and pretending I am over you over drinks with friends the next day? I’m not over you.
Why do I keep inviting…
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